Been listening to Ariana Grande’s One Last Time on repeat. This is such an emotional song, beautifully written and sung. There is a distinct urgency to the melody, and a sort of do-or-die mentality that shines through the character in the lyrics.
One last time, I need to be the one who takes you home.
One more time, I promise after that I’d let you go.
Lyrics from song - One Last Time
I created Ed Ramsey with the same mentality and desperation in mind. He’s a tough guy by appearance but a sensitive fellow on the inside. There’s not one moment of his day that he did not wish to get back with his high school sweetheart, Allison. He wants her, craves her, even though she’s married and in love. He’s been at her constant beck and call, and her midnight confidant with whom she confides her marital problems all without moans or wails. His obsession for his "angel" makes him a puppet to her selfish wills.
“Stay with me, will you?” she asked in her selfish little way and like always, he did as she wished, promising her devotedly, “I will be here. I won’t go anywhere.”
If only Ed knows how to quit her. He has numerous chances but never managed to. When she takes from him, he eagerly gives; and when she strings him along, he chases after her like a good puppy, every time. This nothing but toxic love triangle in which he got himself so stuck eventually leads him astray. A tragic end that he’s unable to escape from, awaits him.
During the next many hours, he thought hard between love and hate, his doomed fate and free will. Like Allison, Ed too had come to a crossroads, a time to decide what to do with that torn-up feeling inside him at long last or risk living it indefinitely.
In the very end, he made a rash decision.
Excerpt from Chapter 31 of Erase
Dark, exciting, poignant. Erase is a disturbingly aspiring psychological thriller that will make you rethink human nature and question morality. It is a tale that will surprise you, grip you, and haunt you in your sleep.
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